Relationships

i've been watching some news lately. Elections, credit crunches, stock markets; all that stuff they want us to care more deeply about than the things we want to care about.

I'd rather care about my family, my friends, my community, and maybe even my business. These are the people and events and things i can put my hands on, and that can put their hands on me. These are the things that represent, in other words, relationships. 

Lately i've been thinking about relationships in my life. i think i've heard the still, small voice saying that i can never know Him more deeply than i know my closest friend (that'd be Windy). i'm challenged by that, so i have tried to be more conscious of what she's saying, doing, working on, thinking about, and probably most importantly, what she's feeling. 

For some reason i run from the feelings of other folks. So, that part is really, inexplicably difficult for me. 

i read that story in Luke 7 about the woman who washed the feet of Jesus with her tears, dried them with her hair, kissed and perfumed his feet--for an embarrassingly long time. She was GIVING to Him in a way i find disturbingly personal. She seemed not to be aware of anyone or anything else but her overwhelming desire to give her self, and to serve Him extravagantly. Disturbing.

i am so reserved when it comes to stuff like that. Makes me think  . . . but i don't even know what it makes me think. i do know it's an intimacy issue. And i know that what Jesus said about that woman is true: "He who is forgiven much loves much."

Pray for me . . .